Eversince I was a little girl, I always believed that I shouldn't ever wear a ring on my left ring finger. So every time I played with dress ups and jewelries, that finger was forbidden and absolutely untouchable. It was reserved for my knight in shining armor. (Again, cliche much?). It was a strict regime and I continued that belief faithfully.
Reaching adolescence, there were many crushes and guy-friends.
I remember using excuses like "oh, I just get on better with guys more than girls" as an excuse to spend more phone time with my guy pals. Don't get me wrong, I still do have some of them around today despite distance and all that. But those were the days where life revolved around school and tuition, where worries were based on exams, gossips and sleepovers!
Around the testing period of 18 and over, many of us had already moved to different countries and pursued various careers. Got to meet new friends, a flurry of social activities, partying was my norm, drink(ing / games) were my favorite past time, and you know, I really began to open up. And I tell you, freedom was a wonderful thing. It tests you. It makes you aware of the environment and people around you.
At one stage, while I was dating prior to my fiance, I remembered how naive I was. I thought the world was a merry-go-round. I was so happy that there were actually early hopes of marriage. I had no idea of man's fear of getting attached emotionally, or on a long term basis and such. Living conditions for the future didn't matter.. and whether being stably financed was an issue. I wasn't going to have any of that thinking. I had no idea.
Today I am 26. That's nearly a decade ago. I cannot believe how much time has passed since then. I know that I have matured and grown up a lot though. Andrew and I have been dating for nearly 5 years now. 5 years of building our foundation. Im so glad that I have found someone who is able to plan ahead and shape the future.. our future.
And I never doubted it. From the moment he slipped the diamond ring on my finger, its like a halo has appeared over me. A beam of light. Despite our shaking hands, we were both ready for this moment. This is the feeling I've always imagined it'd be to finally have my future husband-to-be's ring on my forbidden finger. Everyday that passes makes it even better. The diamond seems to be glowing shinier and shinier... as if it knows my heart and how happy I feel as we begin to plan our wedding celebrations.
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